🔗 Share this article Unbearable Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting. The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches. This condition typically begin with severe pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours. Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods. What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain. One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home. Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital. Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility. Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”. The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this. In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered. In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints. Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies. A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased. National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people. But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity. The official guidance need updating to reflect a